Conclusions according to Louve

Well, over the last couple of weeks...or so..I've been spending time thinking (coming to conclusions, I would guess) about a couple of things. After much, MUCH reading on 2012 (and thats not nearly my only
reference...just the most complete, if anyone reading this cares to read up), but after reading all about it I've come to the conclusion to stop worrying. Either it is gonna happens, or it's not. If its not, life will go on and it all will die down like all the other unfulfilled predictions that we've endured. If it is going to happen, there sure as hell isn't going to be much anyone can do about it so....if I'm going to surrender to anything, I might as well surrender myself to that! *smirk*

My next conclusion is that I have resigned myself to the fact that I am never going to understand the lifestyle Goreans. I used to think I micro analyzed everything to an unhealthy, exhausting, (sometimes irrational) degree. Not so. I met my match in
Goreans. And granted, lets not take away from them the fact, that although living a
Gorean lifestyle has been around for a number of years. Its not near long enough to
come to the conclusions that alot of philosophies are definitely laid out on. And while most philosophies grow and mature to fruition and the true purpose of their embrace, Goerans (to me) seem to not want to grow to fruition at all. From my observations either they individually, or as 'cliches' that I'm sure they relate to 'brotherhoods', argue and dispute other individuals or 'cliches/brotherhoods', making it seem impossible to come to anything definitive. Not only do they understand their various beliefs and takes on it all, they rigorously believe their take is *the* Gorean way. In my view, Goreans hold themselves back with all the discrepancies among themselves as to what is and what isn't. And I've no doubt they would respond to that as "that is the nature of a Gorean. Alpha's fighting for their cause...their beliefs...to be on top. But everything in the books. Even the codes and various castes...the different cities and laws...all sat down, as Alpha males and were able to come up with their codes. So a more efficient way of politics and laws...and the reasons for them, were established. And to (not challenge, but I'm sure they see it as a challenge), propose such thoughts and opinions to them...and even other thoughts, many thought about it, they either dismiss you as 'just not one of the ones who get it', or 'not cut out to live the life'...or some other dismissing diversion, instead of intelligently addressing the issues with answers that, at least to this ungorean person, would like answers that can change my point of view...or at the very least, let me be able to intelligently understand why they think, act, and respond like they do...and then, when asked why...just blankettly, generically, sum it up as....Gorean. So again, my conclusion goes back to the very first sentence of this paragraph.

*Big sigh*

Even if its only writing out my thoughts and finalizing my conclusions in
writing...it somehow feels therapeutic, to me. :)

December 21, 2012

The History Channel is airing Armagedonn Week, this week. Out of curiosity, and because of my desire to hear, listen to, learn about mysterious things, I found myself watching the History Channel all day this past Sunday. I learned some interesting things....and it left me with alot of speculation.

First, as most know, the Mayans (and Nostradomus) have predicted that the world is ending on the first day of Winter Solstice...12/21/2012. Now, we've (at least I have) heard this 'premonition' before. In fact, wasn't it circulating in 1999 that the world was ending (another Nostradomus prediction) in the year 2000? I don't normally give in to this kind of hype. But, I learned some interesting things this past Sunday which leads me to believe something may indeed happen. Maybe not a big BOOM and the world disintegrates into little particles, and then again, maybe it will be a big BOOM. But...something. The Mayans are/were known for their incredible insight and knowledge in mathematics and astrology. In fact, Mayans lived by 3 calendars. One, called the Haab calendar, is the one closest to our tradional (Gregorian) calendar that we go by. The Haab calendar was 376 days, divided into months or divisions - 5 days that were considered the Unlucky Days. The Mayans however, believed that the cycles of the Haab calendar repeated itself twice, equivalent to our 4 seasons, kinda. They also had the Tzolkin calendar. It consisted of 260 days, (approximately 9 months) the length of a baby's gestational period. The the third calendar, the Long calendar, was equivalent to about a century of time (longer, but roughly equivalent). It was on the Long calendar that the Mayans calculated their premonitions, findings, and claims. (Most of which, over the years, have come to light). The Mayan's also believed that time repeats itself. It flows in cycles, as opposed to the normal thinking that time proceeds along a line, once you pass that point, its...history. The Mayan's believe that on the day of Winter Solstice in the year 2012 (12-21-12), the planets will align, there will be a shift in the earth's orbit and...things will change. They say, it could result in an end to the earth, or to the beginning of an earth we are not used to. That is the Mayan account.

And then some say, in reality....its the Dawning of the Age Aquarius
The End Of The Age (Towards 2012 AD)

There are great cycles in the cosmos which rule great events. One such is the cycle of the Great Zodiac Ages which spans almost 26,000 years. This is the time it takes our planet's equatorial plane (due to its axial wobble) to regress one full cycle along the solar plane (ecliptic). Each zodiac age can last anywhere from 2000 to 2300years. The Age of Pisces in which we live is one of the shortest ages, beginning in 26 AD and ending in 2012 AD -or a total of just over 1986 years. In 1945 we entered the last degree of Pisces. Here are the ages and their durations...

Aries, Pisces, Libra, Virgo 1986.37 years
Aquarius, Scorpio, Leo, Taurus 2129.04 years
Capricorn, Sagittarius, Cancer, Gemini 2291.28 years

These lengths are based on the Earth's electromagnetic (astrological) composition. The dates at which each begins or ends is based on the Mayan calender. The Mayan Great Year is 25,626.83 years, which is then divided into five periods of 5125.36 years or 1,872,000 days. These five "Worlds" or "Suns" do not necessarily correspond with the astrological ages, but the end of this fourth World does. The Mayan Fourth World or Sun began in 3113 BC and ends in 2012 AD. The Mayans use 5, 10, and 20 (fingers and toes) as their base numbers, and a whole octave series of dates around these key numbers can be built, as follows...

5125yrs 3113BC-2012AD Mayan 4th World
512.5yrs 1500-2012AD The Americas
51.25yrs 1961-2012AD Photon Belt
5.125yrs 2007-2012AD Pole Shift

Each successive period is ten times shorter, yet ten times more intense. The last 512 years were ten times more intense than the whole 4th World period. The last 51-year End Time period is 100 times more intense than the whole 4th World period and ten times more intense than the whole Modern era of the New World or Americas. The last 5-year period will be 1000 times more intense than the whole 4th World period, 100 times more intense than the Modern or Colonialist period, and 10 times more intense than the End-Time or Photon period. Every 5125-year period intensifies in this manner untill it is ended by a worldwide flood, fire, or other global catastrophe, from which humanity has to start all over again. While the crossover from one age to the next can take hundreds of years, the critical midpoint between the Age of Pisces and the Age of Aquarius is December 21st, 2012 AD, when the Earth's equatorial plane aligns exactly with the galactic center. The Ages are a purely planetary phenomenon based on the planet's wobble. The source of this wobble is in dispute, although its suspected it is linked to our planet's inner sun (our planet is hollow containing an inner central sun). Each planet has its own ages. Each Age has a theme, and the theme of the Age of Pisces is Christianity (Sagittarius is on the Midheaven). Both Pisces and Sagittarius are "spiritual" signs interested in the larger meaning of life. The theme(s) of the coming Age of Aquarius will be truth and brotherhood. The best Age for this planet is Libra, since this is its ruling sign. The last such age was from 14,773 to 12,787 BC. Next best are Gemini (6380 to 4089 BC) and Aquarius(2012 to 4142 AD).

The Age of Pisces is NOT a good Age for this planet, as Pisces represents the eigth house of death for Libra. What is special about the Age of Aquarius is that not only is it a "good" Age, but it is also during this age that our solar system is going to be inside the photon belt. Every 10,684 years, our solar system enters this belt of photonic energy for a period of over 2100 years, usually during the Ages of Leo or Aquarius. When it was last in Leo, Atlantis reigned supreme in a Golden Age. Photon energy is divine enegry or what the bible calls the Holy Spirit, and which comes from the center of Creation and is stepped down to the galactic, solar, planetary, and individual levels. We will in effect be reconnected to our divine source. This will raise the vibratory level to the point where people will either resist and die or let go and be transformed into a light being. The Earth itself will be transformed and shine like a star as its inner central sun is finally fully turned on. This is the new heaven and earth.

Our solar system began its entry into the belt in the early 1960's and will be fully immersed by late 2012 AD. The effect of this will be like turning the light switch to the "on" position. This new energy will power everything from our bodies to gadgets and transportation systems. The old sources of energy will no longer work or be needed. During the ensuing Millennium everyone will work towards making this planet a paradise again, and after the 1000 years are over there will be a great Graduation event of souls who have acheived light being status as well as a great Resurrection of all souls throughout history who will be given 100 years to relive their lives and come to the truth. All those left behind will still have another 1000 years of grace before Earth and the solar system exit the photon belt and enter once again into another long night of 10,684 years, wherein only the interior of the planet will remain a paradise.

So....
End of the world..or not?

The Dawning of the Age Aquarius

:)

An interesting phenomenon

An interesting thing happened at my weekend job, this weekend. I guess the incident itself wasn't so phenomenal as the reactions and responses that came with it.

First...my weekend job has ohh...probably thousands of agents that work there, from all over the country, from all walks of life. There's a forum board there where you can post your thoughts, bitches, and feelings about work, working there, or just about anything you want to post about. Those forums are dangerous to begin with. Hell, the people I work with are lethal!! They are the most judgemental, opinionated (even for me to say that!), insulting people I ever dealt with. At times I think IRC has nothing over on this bunch. What's scary about that is..."this bunch" isn't IRC. This is a chunk of Americana at its best. Oh yea.

Well. One of the agents decided to grab him a pic of Ari Hesty (some upcoming singer) and put it up as his avitar. Some people put avitars up of celebrities...some put some up of things (flowers, dogs, cartoon captions) some put pics up of themselves. When this guy put his up, some people asked him if it was his real pic. He lied and told them yes. Life at LiveOps went on as usual.

All was going well. He was carry on in the forums, posting and 'socializing' and the general consensus was...he was alright (gay from what I hear, but alright lol). Well, one day (and I suppose this was bound to happen), a different agent was out scouting around in You Tube and found this clip of the real Ari Hest, singing and doing a skit on it.

The posts started in. This one incident lead to about a dozen different threads about this agent who put up a picture of this Ari Hest, portraying it as himself. The majority thought of him as a lying, scheming, untrusting, deplorable human being. There were a few (myself included) that felt it was just a picture. The agent wasn't in any way hurting anybody. He wasn't trying to find real life with anyone. He wasn't promising anything to anyone, wasn't asking anybody for anything. I mean, if its just his looks we're talking about, he means not a damn thing to me or to anyone else there...so what's the big deal?

What was interesting to me was, that while about hmm, 70% of the people posting opinions thought he was a liar and a bad boy, the biggest majority of the 30% of the people who didn't think it was a big thing were the people he actually did form closer ties to than the job. Interesting. Interesting to me, anyway. Imposters...or people saying they look like some picture of someone that isn't them isn't something new to me. It happens ALOT on IRC. Maybe thats why it didn't bother me. Or maybe it didn't bother me because I don't care who he thinks he wants to look like or who will accept him or not if they knew what he REALLY looked like, I don't know. But what I found interesting were...the people he got close and personal with didn't care. If anyone *should* have cared, it should have been them for him not being up front with them, if they went to a deeper level of relationship. But they all maintained what he looked like didn't change who he was.

And all the agents who never gave a rats ass about him suddenly are paying close, close attention to 'the lying fraud'.

I found the reactions....interesting.

A Good Day

Today was a good day. Call volume at my weekend job, so far, this weekend, is killer. I had back to back calls today, and most all of the time I was working was on bonus time. Four hours of work raked in 73 bucks! Yea!! I love this job, and don't mind giving up my weekends to work, when the work is good like that. I take infomercial television and radio offers on this job. The people you meet are interesting. Its a challenge and brings out my competitive nature, as I go thru the steps and try to sell them "upsells, and downsells". Those are good, and increase your ratings which increase your call volume. The downside of this job is I get per minute of talk time. So, when conditions aren't right, I could make as little as a waitress without her tips!! Those are huge bummer days, as I resent giving up my weekend time to sit idly at the pc, waiting for calls (money) to come my way.

Two years ago, I did this job full time. Money was never an issue for me then. I mean, I wasn't Rockefeller, or anything like that. But I wasn't worrying. Now, I work the infomercial job on weekends only, and work a regular 9-5, hourly rate of pay job, Monday thru Friday. The pay is MUCH less than LiveOps (the infomercial job). But it has benefits, like a 401K, paid holidays...and the potential to, along with my retirement pension from my respiratory career...and whatever pittance SS will be, will allow me to actually retire, one day. But...when call volume at LiveOps is good, that temptation to go back full-time kicks in...and I have to keep telling myself there's a reason I'm opting for lower income, even though I sure could use it right now.

After almost three months of painful struggling to make up a mortgage payment that I got behind on, I get a letter from my mortgage company, last week. The arm is being adjusted again. My payments just keep rising. It sucks. Yea...HELL YEA!!! Lets continue to bail out all these irresponsible corporations, while WE, the small guys, struggle and do whats right...at OUR cost, struggle, and worry. It's the American way...and the smart thing to do...((so they say, but I don't, and won't, always believe what "they say").

But that will just turn into a rant, and I'm not in the mood for ranting today. Today's a good day. It's been productive. The freedom of working at home, at my desired time, both for my weekend and weekday jobs, makes me realize I don't have much to complain about (even though I do like to complain :)

Common sense, good sense, no sense whatsoever

As I listen to people going on about their online life dilemma's, I just have to shake my head and well, feel sorry for them, I guess. What I'd like to know is, when was it declared that the people you meet and become aquainted with on the internet are supposed to have, or supposed to be trustworthy people? I mean, when you think of this logically, you only half trust the people you meet in real life, face to face, and would hardly call 'everyone' your friend. Yet online, the rules change so dramatically. Not only are you willing to give strangers trust, you are willing to give them money, let them run your life, let them RUIN your life, then....just sit back and wonder why it happens.



If it weren't for the fact that the people who do get burned get genuinely hurt and become emotional wrecks, I would remind them...point out to them...the haphazard care they took "In Themselves", when they entrusted these online, trustworthy *smirk* people to their lives. But there is little point in that once they are hurting and looking for help, or at the very least a little sympathy. But it still amazes me that people take such poor care of their own well-being, and are so very, very quick to blame other people for NOT taking care of their well-being. There is just no sense in any of it.

I have been accused of 'not having an offline perspective'. I am quite adept with my offline perspective, thank you very much! I am sincerely beginning to think it's not me that has a problem with that. The problem is with people not having the good sense to think about what they are doing. It is those people who have lost perspective on things. They have lost themselves to the comfort of the internet, the comfort of believing what they want to hear, and the logical sense of reality vs unreality. And when it all comes tumbling down on them...when their bad decisions lead to the turmoil they placed themselves into, then they cry foul and boo, when, in my opinion, they are a big, big part of the problem. They are the enablers of the scammers and preditors online. Then they want everyone to understand their position.

To tell them all this makes one seem heartless and non-caring. Yet, to warn these people about what they are doing before they actually do it, is seen as butting into their business and telling them things that (they swear at the time) they have a handle on. The solution?? I doubt there is one. As long as people confuse the perspectives of online life and offline life, these problems will always be there.

Now...I've said it. Albiet, just to myself, and have hurt no ones feelings in the interim, but I feel better. :)

Idle time

Well, my daughter conveniently clogged my computer up with viruses, last night. Oh the joys of 'know-it-all' teens. I have this other computer that my husband actually bought a couple of years ago and never even took it out of the box. (another 'know-it-all', but thats a whole other story). I took it out this morning, set it up...it runs on Vista which sucks BIG time, cuz my weekday job, the programs they use, aren't compatible with Vista yet. Hell, as far as compatibility goes, Vista isn't compatible with my anti-virus program, its not compatible with my printer, fax, copier. Vista sucks. So...no work for me, today. And a HUGE headache, trying to set up this confounded Vista computer. My husband doesn't know it yet, but he's being charged for the work! lol But to be fair, I am setting it up for him, with web-sites and programs he uses, so the charge will be valid ;)



Since I have the day off, I figured I'd be able to pull a thought or two together here, since my time allows me about a post a month. First of all, I went to see the shuttle lift off Friday night. It's the supposed last night launch of a shuttle, before they put all of the shuttles down for good. I've been to Space View Park before to see daytime lift offs...and have seen lots of daytime and nighttime lift offs from my home, but seeing one taking off at night, up close, is nothing short of spectacular. The ground shakes (and I wonder if the ground shaking is somewhat like a tremor in California, I don't know), you can feel the electricity of everyone around you, when it lifts off, you can almost swear a bomb is going off. But then this huge ball of fire starts rising (and you can't even see the shuttle, or anything but a ball of fire, or what might seems like an artificial sun), and it rises and rises with a huge tail of fire trailing behind it. It was a cloudy night, that night, so as it rose, it continued to look like a muffled fireball racing up to the sky. On a clear day you can see the actual shuttle, sometimes even, if the suns right, reflecting it. On a clear night, it doesn't so much look like a ball of fire, as much as it looks like a streak of fire racing upwards. But up close...with the sights, sounds, feel of the ground, excitement of the people around you. Well, its just something to see.



And the people. Geeezzzz. There were people from all over the country and world! I met a man from Germany there, who said he came specifically to watch this last night launch. I got to thinking about it as we talked. He spoke very good english, watched enough of American news to know about the shuttle launches and this being the last one....and actually had an interest in "Our" history, to be witness to it. He also asked me and my husband if we were glad that Obama was president-elect. He seemed very, very, very happy that he was. And, being the democrats we are, we were. And it occurred to me that (aside from republicans, and American republican, I mean), alot of people are glad that Obama's been elected. I know the republicans don't have much confidence in him, but I damn sure do. And hearing how he's being received globally just makes me feel all the better. We're on the lame duck watch, now we just have to endure the wait.

But the launch was fantastic...better than I ever could have thought. The world's on its way to getting better (hopefully, at least America is!) And now....its just to deal with this Vista computer. I can't wait to get MY computer back.

So typical...for a republican

Now that the election is over...Obama's won and the republicans lost....I am hearing more and more about how republicans (yes republicans, NOT democrats) are criticizing and blasting Palin for who she was, actually stooping to call her a Wasilla Hillbilly.

Now, it makes me wonder. If Sarah Palin, the governor of Alaska, is a mere hillbilly to her own campaign camp (that's right...McCain's own campaign camp is launching these accusations and name callings), a campaign that picked her with their own little umm...brains? If she's really a hillbilly when the curtains go down and the games over....where does "Joe, the plumber" fit in? Where do all the joe the plumbers, lisa the school teachers, Andy the painters truly fall into the republican plan??

It's just so obvious, and I can't understand how intelligent people can fall for it. They like to spew and redicule the proposals to moderate and start regulating Wall St...a sector thats already proven their unaccountability, as big owners and CEO's of mega corporations tumble and run with big bail outs under huge umbrella's to compensate them for their fuck up. I heard someone say "Why start a business if you can't pay yourself a salary". lol. Come on now...these people who ran with their money were far from accountable business owners. They ran, leaving the American people and Congress...gov't...to bail them out...insisting not getting bailed out would further worsen situations. Now, I believe that "To An Extent". But the smaller business owners wouldn't be afforded that same luxury, if they made bad business decisions and ruined their business. So...DO the republicans support small business. No. Hell, they don't even support their own team when they lose!!! How....American of them. Yea.

I doubt I'll ever get logic like that. I instead ask, With friends like that on your side, who would ever need enemies? I say...let the republicans go on and on about how right and just it is to be republican...while they go on forever being brain-washed by big corporations into being their "do-boys" and "do-girls". You know...the peons that actually DO something to make big business run?

I truly do know there is more to it all than just that. It has to be. And while I never liked Palin, even as a person, I don't like that she's becoming the scape goat for a failed campaign. Their justification at her expense...after they insisted during their whole campaign she was more than qualified for the job. (even though she wasn't sure what her job description was! lol), is more than apparent to me and should be to anyone, really.

That's politics. And despite all the gloom and doom stories about how Obama is going to fuck up. I will sit back while the reps run their bp up, figuring out what else to say...and wait, for myself, to see how much progress a man who never failed at a goal he set, in his life, proceeds with his new position.